Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Being hormonal.

I have been meaning to write for a while but haven't been able to get around to it somehow. And today I am in a shit mood. There are several topics I would like to discuss but none of them seem to fit my mood right now because they require me to be more objective and right now I just can't because I feel like crap. I cannot pinpoint why I feel like this. I know I have been somewhat stressed about work but things seems to be settling down and becoming more stable. I have to record my BodyBalance class this evening and if it's a good video I can send it to les Mills for evaluation but if it doesn't work out I can just tape it again next week. Or tomorrow even. I'm not worried about it. I don't expect it to be perfect the first take anyway. I took the evening off yesterday to let my body recover from 3 hours of teaching the day before and slept pretty well so there is no real reason for this lack of energy. I need to set up a new eating schedule though but I've been meaning to for a while. The only thing I can think of is hormones. I have a coil so I have no idea when I should have my period and it doesn't upset me as it used to but sometimes I still get a bit of PMS. I must admit I haven't had it this bad in a while. I have no idea why it's this bad right now. I feel like punching people in the face for no reason at all. Everything is pissing me off. It's insane. I don't understand how women put up with it. It's driving me nuts. I really hate feeling like this, all over the place and unable to pick yourself up, pull yourself together and get on with things. This is one of the things I hate about being born female, being at the mercy of your own glands. Maybe most women are used to having emotions run their lives. Maybe that's how they can handle this. But for me it's hell. I'm used to being in control of my emotions and being able to shelf them when I need to. Except on days like this. I really can't wait to start on testosterone and having my menstrual cycle shut down. That way I can use every day to its fullest.


How do other people deal with this? Ladies? Let me know how you deal with days like this. I would much appreciate it. Fellow transmen, how long did it take, once on T, to stabilize this emotional roller-coaster? I'd really like to know.

4 comments:

  1. ETA on testosterone treatment? Still wanna treat you to that straight razor shave :)

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  2. Not really sure yet. I'm hoping February but it could take a lot longer.

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  3. I can't wait for the menstrual cycle to shut down as well. I feel the same, about being more emotional in these periods. It makes me feel cranky for no reason. Still need to find a way to deal with it until I can use T.
    Hang in there!

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  4. For a couple of years I am taking the birth control without the pauze-week. So I am taking it non-stop, and that also makes the menstruation stop. It really made life a lot better for me.

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