My low testosterone levels do make me wonder. I don't look like it. I mean, I'm pretty strong and all. I hope this means I am very receptive to testosterone and will be getting results really quick. Time will tell.
I only got started yesterday so I'm not noticing anything yet. I am slightly nauseous which can be a side effect but it could also be stress. I mean, this is a big deal, no matter how cool I may act. I also didn't sleep very well. I was really restless. Could be the T, could also be anticipation. This morning, while I was teaching BodyBump, my barbell felt really light though but I did have trouble focusing. Again, no way to tell what that means. Right now, I'm tempted to read into everything. I really need to restrain myself. I should start noticing something within a few weeks though. Something. There are guidelines for what to expect but they are not rules. It's different for everyone. Usually the voice starts acting funky pretty quickly which is going to be a lot of fun while teaching. I can just see myself squeaking while I'm trying to help people push through those last single presses in the shoulder track. Fun fun fun. But it will pass. Things will get better and I can finally be myself.
Writing that last sentence makes me realize how much I am still putting my life on hold. There are still so many things I don't do because I feel I can't because my body is holding me back. But that's not true. During BodyPump I sometimes remind people of that. Can or can't are thing that live inside your head. If you tell yourself you can't do those last few reps then you will fail. If you tell yourself: I can do this and I will, then you can and you will. This is true for a lot of things in life. Many more then we think. But it's so much easier to think we can't because then we don't have to fail. We don't even try. It's safer. But I am done being safe. I tried to play it safe most of my life and all it got me was misery. No more. It's time to start saying: yes I can! So here I go. I can do this.
Isn't is possible for the endo to send a prescription to your huisarts to take care of the injections if he isn't comfortable with them? Have you heard anything from the Leiden hospital yet?
ReplyDeleteCongrats on starting the hormones, I hope they are exactly as you want them to be. You'll notice (small) changes soon. My voice even changed a little bit in the first week on T, it's still going up and down but it's not as high as before (a bit over 2 months on T).
The thing is that he's against injections in general because of the fluctuations you get. He wants a stable level at all times. So the gel is basically the only option.
DeleteThe hospital in Leiden destroyed my referral letter because "they didn't know what to do with it." So that's no longer an option.
I'm really curious what's going to happen. Time will tell.
How's the gel treating you? I've not heard/read much about people's experience with the gel.
ReplyDeleteWhat about Nebido? Those injections tend to fluctuate a lot less than Sustanon. Depending on what insurance you have you could get a part of it covered.
Nebido is not completely covered either and costs even more per year so that's not really an option at the moment. Alas. So far teh gel is fine. I'm not noticing much difference yet but that is to be expected after only one week.
DeleteI hear the gel is the best way but I didnt opt into doing gels because they are too expensive for my budget $50 is too much I rather pay $25 but I'm not scared of needles anyway and I do my shots every two weeks...how often is the gel and how long does it last because if its like $50 a month that would come out to the same as my shots
ReplyDeleteYou have to put the gel on every day. So it's a bit annoying and a constand reminder, if you don't actually forget. One bottle should last about a month but some people need more and some people need less. It's easier to adjust the dose this way though. You just take a bit more or a bit less.
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